Next weekend supposed to be my happiest weekend of 2011.
My ex promised me to come down to PJ just to have a long weekend together.
But promises are meant to be broken. So many activities were well planned; the activities will never be carried out anymore because we walk separate ways.
Let me ask you this, when we are in relationship, shall we trust those promises made by your another half that he/she gonna fulfill it? Or we should be reserved and expect less?
I have no idea. I know we should trust our lover but we should protect ourselves also to minimize the disappointment when the promises are broken.
Like my case, he promised me to take me here and there. If we were together, I would have a warm and comfy Christmas’ Eve in Cameron. If we were together, I would have Christmas at Disneyland next year. Silly as it seems but he bought a sweater for me to wear for next year Christmas at Disneyland. Pretty sweet right? The sweetness kills. Until now, I still hold a little bit of resentment on this.
But who am I to hold resentment on him? We are over. No point to hold on tight to a relationship that promises no future. He gave up on me and no point of me to hold on to a person who gave up on me. Nevertheless, I always wish him well.
How am I doing lately?
To be honest with you, I’m doing more than ok.
The crucial period of my work has already over.
No need to worry, I’m not longer emo over breaking up. No matter how emo I am or how sad I am, I would not have his concern. I would not have his attention. I would not even have the chance that he would come back to me.
So I have to lead my life well. I have to make sure that I’m still the crazy happy bitch.
For those broken hearts out there, please don’t hold resentment. I know you cant forget but just forgive. I also forgive my ex but not forget what he has done.
Please don’t emo for so long. Life still goes on. If you are emo and crying shit everyday, people will not be attracted to you. Be fierce and change. You are damn fine that you won’t be single for long.
On lighter note, sometimes you may see my tweets are very sweet and super emo. Don’t be confused. Super emo is for my past. Sweet tweets are for…..well….anyway, so what’s next for relationship?
Just take it slow. God is teaching me to be patience.
Actually, there are many things are inappropriate for me to do so.So, I ordered my arms to stay where they are. I rather use no action to pique your curiosity.Meeting my eyes with your eyes is a wishful thing but I wouldn’t do. I’m afraid I would lose my breath if I do so.
People say faster we fall in love, the fast it will end. That’s why I haven’t approach you at first so I can have you til the end.
I do not know it is appropriate to label this moments as good times or not. Damn those adjectives. It doesn’t matter. In this journey we call life, through good times and bad in sickness and in health, I know regardless, we are or aren’t an item, we will account for them all.
For my case, love always comes so sudden like the huge tide. The huge tide comes so fast and goes so fast just like my previous relationships. I learnt my lesson well.
God has taught me to wait. I’ll wait for love to flow like a stream. I will learn love through patience.
I know sometimes the flare and the passion is just too overwhelming for me to bear. So I’ll learn to lean on God to tame my overwhelming expectation.
When the day that you are willing, the flare and passion that has kept for so long will make you the luckiest person on this earth.
I’ll use silence to awaken love and you’ll use anticipation as your response. Thereafter, we will begin to love and we will walk this path called life.
